Q: So you went back again?
A: Sure, but this time I went back with the kids. It does feel like a ritual that I don’t know if they even care about. I take them to my school, my jobs, my bedroom, by favorite food places, even the most mundane things you can imagine- I showed them a place I fell off my bike.
Q: So what are you looking for?
A: I was into to the idea that when I left my hometown life started anew. Other people inhabited that town and I no longer did. Like a hotel room- it resets itself anew for the next person and the receipts are ripped up from my stay. No record, no evidence. Life moved forward only.
Q: And you found that to be true?
A: No, not even close. It’s all connected…history never gets erased. No matter how hard you try to make it do so.